Saturday, October 30, 2010
Six months of Avery
This has been a big month for Avery because we have been on the road all month long, and we're still at Yaya and Poppy's house in Las Vegas. We started our trip here and made a gradual journey down to Florida for my sister's wedding last weekend. I had originally planned to go straight back to Hawaii with Adam, but decided at the last minute to break up that long, grueling trip with another stop in Las Vegas. It's been an exhausting month for Mama and I'm very road-weary, but Avery has weathered the traveling like a pro. She's now been on 8 plane rides, including layovers, with another two before we're home. We visited cousins in Washington DC and saw my friend E while we were there. And we met all sorts of relatives at my sister's wedding including Avery's Great Grandmother and her Great-Great Grandmother, who is 99 years old!
Last night was a mini-breakthrough in that she slept unswaddled all night long for the very first time. She surprised me with how well she did, although I don't think it decreased her night waking as I hoped it would. And I got even less sleep because she was sprawled out in the middle of the bed and I was hugging the edge, trying to get comfortable, wanting to toss and turn, but trying to stay still so as not to make any noise. Not to mention my brain was on alert monitoring her all night. And she was moving around more, of course, and I hear every little sound she makes and my brain turns on - what's she doing?
I'm torn about moving her to her crib. On the one hand, I know she really needs a separate sleeping space because she disrupts my sleep too much when she is right next to me (and honestly, I probably disrupt her sleep to some extent too). Part of me thinks (hopes) that if/when she is in her crib, she will sleep longer stretches. On the other hand, there are many good reasons to keep her in my bed, the biggest being that I don't have to get up and work on getting her back to sleep in her crib. I can just plug her in and let her fall asleep nursing, which she often does in a matter of minutes. Easy! BUT, if I only had to get up once or maybe twice, it would be worth it? Maybe? Rather than be awakened hourly all night? Also, when she's in bed with me she doesn't have to wake all the way up to get my attention. She never has to cry in the night. She is happy and well rested, even if I'm not. And part of me thinks I should just stick it out and wait for her to reach the developmental point of sleeping longer on her own. I have thought about sidecarring our crib, but luckily she does nap regularly in her crib and I am loathe to mess with that. Buy another crib?
Parenting is so hard! And I haven't even gotten to the *really* hard decisions!
She is such a happy baby. Aside from the sleep issue, I have nothing to complain about. She is our little angel, always smiling and laughing. She will smile at the air when she wakes up in the morning - she is just happy to be alive. We are so blessed and I fall in love with her more every day.