I have to cut myself off from watching Dexter. I like the show, I really do. But it's just too gorey and graphic for me, and violent and scary. I do not do well with horror or anything like that. I was scarred for MONTHS after watching The Ring. And I spent most of that movie huddled down in my seat with my hands over my eyes.
Laugh if you want.
I truly believe that we internalize all that stuff and I do not need those images floating around in my psyche and cluttering up my spiritual landscape.
Not to mention, it really terrifies me! (***WARNING, PLOT SPOILER COMING UP!***) I stayed up waaaay too late last night watching the two episodes my DVR recorded on Sunday about how the ice truck killer kidnapped Dexter's sister, and then how Dexter kills the ice truck killer, and wow, I was really engaged in the plot and the psychological intricacies and twists, but when I turned the tv off to get in bed I was really scared. I am afraid of someone coming and breaking in my apartment to get me. I know it sounds irrational, but IT HAPPENS! And I'm scared of it! Normally I don't think about it, but when I watch stuff like that.... I had to call Adam at work and have him talk me down!
When I first came to DC as an intern, there was a spate of "attacks" where this guy was breaking into womens' apartments and they would wake to find him STANDING OVER THEM watching them sleep. Creepy, right? I was scared shitless because my roommate would constantly leave the windows open and that's how he was getting in. He never hurt anyone, but STILL. Fuck.
Also? I started a new workout yesterday and my ass is SO sore. I guess it was the reverse lunges or something, but I'm in pain y'all. It's a good sort of pain, though! I swear I wouldn't know what to do with myself if some part of my body wasn't sore from working out - haha.